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"You eat your goddamn Cheerios and bicker with the bitch in your head who keeps telling you you’re fat and weak: Shut up, you say, I’m busy, leave me alone. When she leaves you alone, there’s a silence and a solitude that will take some getting used to. You will miss her sometimes.
Bear in mind she’s trying to kill you. Bear in mind you have a life to live."
- Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia (via bambieyedgirls)

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"eat, baby.
I know it hurts. I know it doesn’t feel good.
I know your hunger is different than mine.
I know it doesn’t taste the same as mine.
imagine you could grow up all over again
and pinpoint the millisecond that you started
counting calories like casualties of war,
mourning each one like it had a family.
would you?
sometimes I wonder that.
sometimes I wonder if you would go back
and watch yourself reappear and disappear right in front of your own eyes.
and I love you so much.
I am going to hold your little hand through the night.
just please eat. just a little.
you wrote a poem once,
about a city of walking skeletons.
the teacher called home because you
told her you wished it could be like that
let me tell you something about bones, baby.
they are not warm or soft.
the wind whistles through them like they are
holes in a tree.
and they break, too. they break right in half.
they bruise and splinter like wood.
are you hungry?
I know. I know how much you hate that question.
I will find another way to ask it, someday.
the voices.
I know they are all yelling at you to stretch yourself thinner.
l hear them counting, always counting.
I wish I had been there when the world made you
snap yourself in half.
I would have told you that your body is not a war-zone,
that, sometimes,
it is okay leave your plate empty."
- empty plate | Caitlyn Siehl (via alonesomes)

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MYTH: Eating disorders are an attempt to keep up with the media’s idea of beauty. 
TRUTH: While the media’s ideas of beauty are damaging to self esteem, they are not the sole cause of eating disorders. eating disorders are complex mental disorders that often stem from 
MYTH: All people with eating disorders are visibly underweight. 
TRUTH: people with eating disorders come in all shapes and sizes, and your weight is not a reflection of how sick you are. Additionally, being at a stable weight but still being symptomatic does not mean that you are healthy or that your body is no longer at risk.
MYTH: If you have anorexia, you have bulimia.
TRUTH: While it is common for peoples’ symptoms to change, some people do only suffer from one type of eating disorder symptom.
MYTH: Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS) is not as serious as anorexia or bulimia.
FACT: People, even doctors tend to treat EDNOS as the “throw all” category. It’s not quite anorexia, not quite bulimia, normally because of a diagnostic specific like weight or menstrual cycle. It is just as dangerous as anorexia or bulimia. EDNOS includes symptoms of restriction, purging, bingeing, laxative abuse, diuretic abuse, overexercising, chewing and spitting, etc.
MYTH: People with Bulimia throw up after everything they eat. 
TRUTH: The definition of bulimia is to binge (or eat large quantities of food until overly full) and then purge. Purging includes vomiting, abuse of laxatives, over-exercise, or starving oneself following a binge. 
MYTH: Eating disorders are all about appearance and thus all sufferers are selfish and vain.
TRUTH: Eating disorders are very complex. They often stem from anxiety, trauma, self esteem, and control.
MYTH: People with eating disorders are on diets, and they can chose to stop any time they want.
TRUTH: Eating disorders have been proven to be addictions, much like drugs and alcohol. It’s not something one can just “choose” to stop. After being immersed in the disorder, the brain becomes malnourished, and sufferers often forget what normal eating is. 
MYTH: Telling someone with an eating disorder “but you’re so skinny!” is helpful.
TRUTH: Making ANY comment about someone with an eating disorder’s appearance, be it “you’re skinny, too skinny, look healthy” is hurtful. No matter what you say, if one is in the disordered state of mind, they will internalize it as a negative thing. The best thing to do is not to make comments at all, and if prompted to say something along the lines of “you know what I think and saying it isn’t going to help either of us.”
MYTH: Eating disorders only affect middle-class young white women.
FACT: Eating disorders do not discriminate based on ethnicity or social class.
MYTH: All overeaters are obese/overweight.
FACT: It is common for someone attempting to recover from anorexia to slip into over-eating once they regain the weight. They may stay this way but their weight might remain stable.
MYTH: Once someone goes through a treatment program/gains weight they are all better.
FACT: Eating disorders are not “cured” once weight is gained, the thoughts and emotions are still there and recovery can take many years. Recovery is a process, not an event.”
MYTH: Men don’t have eating disorders/only gay men have eating disorders.
FACT: About 10% of people with eating disorders are men, and sexuality has nothing to do with it.
MYTH: People with anorexia don’t eat anything at all.
FACT: People with anorexia don’t eat enough to nourish their bodies. They may eat very little so that their body goes into starvation mode.
MYTH: People with eating disorders are stupid and don’t know what affects they are having on their bodies.
FACT: People with eating disorders DO know, however the addiction overpowers logic.

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bodies require food
bodies require rest
bodies require attention
bodies require patience

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